It's been so long since I've been here goodness. Its best to clean up here before I go back to my other blog. A more private place, where not so many people know of its existence. I hope it doesnt get leaked somehow HAHA.
I've finally broken up. Finally, because of how much I really longed for fresh air without realizing it. I learn now how sensitive I am to control, how the people closest to me have the biggest impact. Especially those within my closest circle. Especially the things that mean the most to me.
It seems I was hurting the first few days, even possibly regretting. I spent the first 4-5 days crying my eyes out the entire night. But seeing and hearing what I have, now I feel as if the pain were all for naught. Especially that one. It seems I got called out for nothing. That was the trigger, the one that made me flare up for the first time in a long time, ever. But through all that pain and anger I realized something. I did make a right decision. That was the final push to move on, the final straw that let me see things as it is. And when it all calmed down, all my feelings were really gone,no grudges and no pain. Any thoughts I had of getting back together were thrown out the window. I'm ready to go on now. I just have some lingering emotions that needs tidying up.
Now I feel liked I just dodged a huge bullet. And in this I start to see again another side of humans, how strange or terrible or how insecure, how immature, how inexperienced one can be. The different people I came across in this period taught me. Hmm...
This will probably be the last post here. HAH I remember when I first closed my first blog so many years ago. It was the same, the end of a relationship means me closing another 'book'. When one door closes, another opens. When one relationship ends, the lesson ends (probably) and it's time to go on again. Goodbye :)
