Sleepless

I wonder who still reads this, from here in Singapore. It seems I am getting a good number from the States. Hello there!

Anyway, it's been a pretty long while since I've blogged out of plain boredom and not to rant, when I had a topic to write about. Hmm, it has been really tiring the past few days, Staying up the whole damn night just to do my dreamweaver project, dance and school. Damn. Exams are coming too and the pressure is slowly building up yet again. Classmates and friends, I mean I hate to see them stressed because that affects me too, so I guess I try my best to lighten even a fraction of their load . But on the bright side, I seem to have really fought off my depression. Perhaps they were just reverberations, the way my mind had struggled to bring itself back to a norm from one single explosive episode. I've been reading articles about how people never recover and spend their entire lives hiding from the light, I fear for myself sometimes too. I should be strong enough now to over come that fear on my own but who knows, there might come a time where I could lose myself again. But till then, it should be the better choice to take care of myself and see that I do what I set out to so desperately do before this time fully, for myself.

I find myself getting stuck in more and more half-ways. Where I find myself stuck in a rut, not sure where to go and how to get out. And they say that what always recurs is the lesson that must be learnt. It could be a problem with myself i'm not too sure actually. Someone please, tell me soon.

I just hope everything can turn out to be good soon. Damn, I miss having someone to talk to all the time. I miss the feeling of having someone I can rely on. It's been a few years now... I think I am starting to tire.



I should sleep.