Love left me hurt and crying, now that i see you, you just make me happy and want to stand up again. One problem, i'm too shy to approach you... I know one thing...i would blush ever deeply in your vicinity.
To you, i would be just another boy in the crowd who was mesmerized . Just someone that stands with the rest and simply thinks of you everyday, waiting to see , and always hoping.
See that? I'm jumping up and down trying to catch your attention. You're really cute you know that? Such a sweet girl, ever rare with so many suitors. I'm just a face in the crowd...
You are simply beautiful to me. Hey, who knows. We could actually have something real between us? Please give me a reply...it's driving me crazy that i'm missing you and you're not the least bit about me.
Smile always they say, but whenever i see you playing and laughing with another guy, i get jealous >< even thought you're not mine...and just that one day. I had to repeat the first word of each paragraph...to you. Its ridiculously cheesy but accept me please?"
All i can hope is cross my heart and hope for the best. Where's the reaasurance? Where's the person i thought i could trust and rely on? I don't know. And i'm lost...
I put too much priority into relationships. Today...is the anniversary. Who am i kidding~ why am i still thinking back? Every minute is a reminder of exactly a year ago, everything that happened. I first met her. The day that led me to become, me. Every minute is excruciating. And people ask why i look so tired today. It didn't pass quickly at all, but every minute feels like an hour. A scar that reminds me why i failed in a relationship so badly. The first. The person that no matter...i'll still turn back if you do. Kai Yoon made some sense. Love may fade but it will never go.Now i wonder...how has your year been?
Horrible day. Not feeling well, dead tired and so much work to do. Tomorrow is the longest day ever. Plus oral practice. As with my emotions now...i feel as if everything is crap. I'm just watching, bearing through things. I haven't heard someone tell me, 'things will be fine' in the longest time. I want and desperately need that kind of reaasurance. Once i recover, only more heartless and cold...
I lost my perception of time, feels like an hour where a minute passes and a minute when an hour passes. Right from wrong, the hundred racing thoughts excite and break me down. I started to lose sight of who is there for me and who's not. I'm playing with emotions again, not to change others. This time, to find myself again.
Talk about breaking down. If not for glenson, weihan derrick jian xun yikang kaiyoon, i would be so damn quiet today. I don't think i would have even said a word. Too bad i have to be the person needy of feelings, so reliant. So many things to worry, to mind, so many people to handle, so many events to attend. My feelings are grinded down to bare nothing. Especially today where i don't know what to feel at all. Another reason why i should not enter a relationship. My emotions are the problem.
I have this kind of emotions too. It's not messy. It's catastrophic.
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