Wednesday, 10 July 2013

You.

A hundred jewels, a thousand diamonds. The glitter and galore held no meaning, only the sheen beneath. Seems that i found a stone among gems, where it's really treasure among the riches.

This stone heart demands priceless and worthy that such a rarity was impossible.
An experience that leaves me senseless. An emotion that leaves me dazed. A person having me want to take care of her every day more.

Always getting me worried. Always has her way of clinging on my mind. Always has that want just to be with her. How many nights must i spend, how many more need i waste to make her accept me...

I feel your hesitance. My fault... Past experiences. I used unpredictability to my advantage and it seems that now it backfires and skewers my heart everyday.
I feel your uneasiness. I was named heartless and a player before. Leave it to me to prove that i'm loyal but how long does that take?
I feel your doubts. I'll show you the darkest, deepest sides of me. I just hope you won't run, cos it's not what but who's inside.

I'm an algamation of all those that held a knife to my heart before. I still care for these people, even though i don't talk to them no more. They still hold their place and nothing will replace it. But you'll get my throne, held in the highest place to me.

I nag because i care. I get angry because of the love to you. I feel the pain whenever you are hurt. It's so much easier to walk away, but it's gonna be sweeter to bear with the pain of you hurting than the pain of losing you.

I see through the walls people put up, if i'm really down to it your defenses are paper. But i'll let you hurt me instead. I deserve this part.

And finally. I can be what you want, i can be what you need, anytime, hopefully everytime. But i can't be everything. My psyche has it's ever withdrawing limits.





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