I remember somewhere in this times, when we had only one friend. One soul that we could play with, quarrel, laugh and scream our hearts out. Then we get a little older, our circle of friends widen be it a little, a little bolder. Into primary school. Into secondary school. People suddenly learnt how to feel, and were forced and pressured and taught what to feel. What is shame? What is guilt? From playful children tainted to fledglings with a new power. Backstabbing, badmouthing, simply standing people up. Friendships are so easily forged and broken. Going into the tertiary stage, everything is fogged by society. Teachers telling us that we need good grades to get good jobs. Who can you trust when there is 5 spaces for 50,000 students? Into the working world. It suddenly becomes every man for himself. He has a family to support. She has a child to feed. Couples form and break, everyone hopeful for their significant other.
But throughout that, there will always be that one person that sticks through everything. Be it known or not. Be it appreciated or not.
I guess i'm sick of the practical side of human life. How it keeps changing for its own benefits and not for those around. I'm even worse offt thinking that i was like that in the past, how i hurt people just to dig out the possibilities a little faster. I was by no means ethical, and now comes this. I guess i took this short break...from having feelings. I mean emotions. It feels nice being so quiet inside here... Needing nobody, heeding no one. Like how she said, it is a hollow block of ice. It cant be melted, it can't be destroyed, it can only be expressed. And that's not something i will like since...it was expressed once. That was already pretty mild.
Back to the Happier side of life now. Happy is quite...much an overstatement. I am contented with things i have now but somehow i am not...happy. I feel really neutral to everything and that makes me feel like i'm living a purposeless life. Since Anonymous is aboutto attack... I do have something to focus on. I'm a supported.
It's stupid to think how Anonymous will destroy stability and peace in SG when all they want is removal of the absurd rules of the IDA. 50,000 unique visitors is a stretch. And a post commending singapore every month? Plus removal of any types supporting racial or religious conflicts. Understandable but IF. It is a real issue? I see Anonymous somewhat as the opposition party except with different approach. Not appreciated at all their method but their aim is well...understood.
Tired . Shall head to bed...
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