Exams now

I'm probably one of the most introverted guy people can know. Sensitive(negatively, unfortunately), probably pretty loyal person(i think), and i guess to all introverted people, when bonds are formed with certain people, they are extremly valuable. I guess one was taken too far. So far an old wound was just.. reopened.

And to be very honest, i thought i was fully over. There was still this chunk of grey emotions there that remained there and finally that chunk is gone. I feel free finally. But at the cost of heavy disappointments. I remember the promise you made. That makes the third time i was so heavily disappointed by anyone in this life. I dont find people i easily bond with, so quickly. Maybe not effortlessly, but definitely worthy. My memory is pretty strong for physical memories. Or those attached with sentimentality. I remember well, and.. i dont know how i can ever make such a commitment again. I mean yes, it is a small matter. But like someone once said, you dont control how much you bleed, if someone stabs you. Just the same, it was a small fling in fact, but i guess.. to me one of the most treasured relationships. No matter anymore haha

I've been using Myer Briggs quite often now. It is a perfect description of me. So how this works is:
1.Are you (I)ntroverted or (E)xtroverted
2.Prefer (S)ensing or i(N)tuition
3.A (F)eeling person or a (T)hinker
4. (P)ercieving or (J)udgemental
So sensing is ability to have say in the now while intuition is prepare for the future, perceiving would be flexible to situations while judgemental would be sticking to values and principles. The choices will form the 4 letter personality type

I fall under the Introvert-dominant intuitive feeling, apparantly the rarest and i am a combination of both. And it is said that to find someone who is an INFJ or INFP, you would have to be really lucky. Only 1% of the world is an INFJ. And its also said that these people, whoever they connect with, that person will grow. And these two types cannot make friends easily and have a criteria for friends. Where it concerns me alone, it is spot on. it seems im not really the best guy around.but since i was really young i only had the idea of being a proper guardian. Guess thats why, me now. And plus i hate being with people my age for some reason. I prefer to be with people much older, or kids. Somewhere deep down i'm not actually 17. I'm pretty confused about what i am actually. I can be everything and nothing at the same time. Sometimes i feel like i'm the happiest person on earth, sometimes i feel like nobody should have the misfortune to know me.

Exam weeks now
Putting more dance and guitar aside... And my focus is surprisingly strong to catch up on so much for not studying haha