It's almost time yeah...

It's been about a year now. And somehow, my prayers has been answered. Bit by bit i start to feel again, start to see the warmth of being around people, start to open up to people. I look back and realise the psychopathic path i took...and i still go down that road. But slowly i deviate to become what i hope to be, normal. I'm slowly losing all those abilities that come along with psychopathism. I just hope that... I'll find myself content one day.

The past few days has been a mess. I took more time off and found myself thinking of the past, the people i hurt in order to find myself. A chameleon i once prided myself as, a narcisist. I still am that can never change as long as he exists but now i see myself clearer. It's scary how i see myself in my mind's eye, a dark and light half.

Okay back to work. To be honest working in an all-girls environment isn't too bad :P it is quite fun and hey i get to see another perspective of life. And now that xin hui is back i'm still super curious to see who she is becos everyday i see her commendation letter there and in that sense i admired her so... :P i dont know. Curiousity kills the cat they say? Then naru is also working here. HAHAHAHA i wanna see how she does HAHAHAHA okay horrible me :/ kinda scared for her. She might not be able to hold the plates and bowls i mean hey i got scalded and burnt and hell i couldn't let go. What more her._. blehhh tomorrow and monday's gonna be so long. Especially monday wth is this 20 pax reservation thats almost the whole goddamn place ahhh i'm kinda scared to do so many people. I hope lunch shift HAHA I'm only coming in at night~ so HOPEFULLY i get to slacken off :P


Just... I don't know. It hurts somehow to see her hurting. Just gotta let her know that no matter what i will always be ready to lend a listening ear and a supportive shoulder. Even if...