Left Furama Riverfront hotel with a sore body urgh. I feel today i performed better than i expected of myself, my hits and tricks so much bigger than usual. We even got interested clients offering us performances!! I got a second job as a performer!! The newly-weds looked so sweet today gosh. It made me daydream a little(?) yeah HAHAHA that was an amazing evening.
As i immerse myself in work i find myself less and less affected by emotions. I hope that soon enough i won't feel anymore negativity and from all the smiling on work i might actually be happy. Feel happy at the least. I still feel down over her but somewhere deep down... I don't understand this. I've decided to wait. I can be such an idiot but i just want to. Unless i can meet someone along the way that is that...moving to me. Yeah...i'll immerse myself again.
So like today was amazing. For the first time i felt so amazing being alone and i think this could be addictive. Knowing me though...my mindset never stays for some things. Tomorrow i might mourn for someone again, the next i might cheer for another's disappearance. I'll leave it to tomorrow and keep fighting for tomorrow while keeping the memories of yesterday. I need to mature.
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