As my songtrack plays i scroll down my chatlist again and see the names of the many people i stopped talking to. Especially a few. It feels weird, like i know you but i don't too. Like amnesia, i can't quite register them. Maybe i lost contact, maybe through a surge of emotions but all these people...it feels really weird. So at 2 in the morning my emotions run again. I'm seriously tired but i can't sleep. I keep thinking, what happened to that me that would swear to protect those important to me and go to stupid lengths to do it.
I see it all. Wanting to go out with someone. Wanting to play and enjoy. Wanting to feel the sensual romance in the air and in the picture perfect images a faceless person stands. Nobody is there to fill this person and i hope this person will come to me soon. The story of the man who gave his eyes to his girl to let her enjoy life plays in my head. Suddenly all the promises made comes hitting harder than time but still directed to nobody. Damn do i feel confused. So much unharnessed energy. :(
I kinda dislike central. Somehow it doesn't click with me anyway i'm gonna quit soon so no matters. I want to see how long Eunice can stay so.. Yeah. Maybe when she quits i will follow suit. I honestly want to spend everyday just playing dota, doing pds, studying my course of choice and having proper sleep. Thats for now anyway
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