Sieghz

Look. I guess tonight i'm a little more.. irritated. I mean.. what happened? What happened to the times when guys would compliment a girl because of how he felt about her rather than because she was 'hot'. And what happened to times when people could be themselves because they didnt worry about other's judgement. Or like how..the thanks could have been given to the guy who held the door open for you, or even the person who took a little more time just for you. Maybe the person who stops in his tracks to ask you about your day, maybe the one who just has you in their mind all day. Perhaps even.. simply being able to sit down and talk about stuff all night. I'm not necessarily emo tonight, just a little more to missing the simpler stuff. The times when there wasnt so much to worry the times when i could tell friends things without really worrying and/or when i actually felt.. carefree. Come on. I miss more than that actually... I'm sick of seeing people assume and all that. I hate seeing people walk away after what i tell them. Please dont.. all i look for is just a simple, pure friendship.

I miss the times of old. Old fashioned romance and the drop-dead cheesy courtship. When chasing someone and sometimes a walk by the beach, a night under the stars. I dont know. I like the old stuff and i really miss seeing people do that. I miss seeing a couple. Not the lovey dovey kind, thats everywhere. I miss seeing the kind that they know they are faithful, and both sides knows how to act around everyone.

So like recently i've been getting irritated of late. Been really tired out and... Actually and ironically i'm losing interest in dance again. I keep on training and i keep getting demoralised. Like damn, i'm not fast enough i'm not good enough even though i'm breaking my body training. That aside.. i still want to find a day to just dedicate it to dance. Hopefully that can get me out of the plateau. Someone have personal self prac with me sometimes? HAHA

It sucks to like someone. What more, someone i dont dare to talk to sigh